So today I skimmed over one of those many post on Facebook that people post about mommy's and how they do it all. In general it was meant to be an up lifting pat on the back for moms who go out trying to take their kids out to lunch putting themselves together somewhat.... You know the trendy clothes, with the stinking cute shoes, the hair somewhat done just so and the makeup only slightly messed up from the kids toughing your face. As i read i first felt the sense of "Oh yeah baby that's how we do what we do, MOM POWER!!!" but then i was surprised to find myself filling with despair. You see I am not that mom, I am never in the trendy clothes. My daily uniform is t-shirt and jeans and the most comfy shoes i can find. My hair is usually pulled up in a ponytail with half of it falling out. And when it comes to make up the only time i break it out is sometimes for church or if i am having a extreme frumpy day. And as i sat there my mind accusing me of being a slob,"why don't you dress up?" "If you would try a little harder to put yourself together people would like you better" "Your husband sure would like to come home from work to a hot put together wife, you are not even a hot mes" So as i sat there knocking myself I realized why do i care, do i want those things, yeah some days but most of the time i am happy in my ratty band t-shirt without make up. I know my Husband loves me, my kids better love me and I would do anything in the world to make them happy they come first and for most in my life. But I also remembered i have a loving heavenly father who love me no matter if i have make up on or not. So the next time I am out and i see those other women looking me up and down and you can see it in their eyes they are judging I will take a moment and remember who loves me for me, and i'll smile.
One of the Hardest things I wil do is learn to love myself, even with all my flaws.
